promises-love

2008-09-11T05:45:00.001-07:00

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Not By Might, Not By Power.

2008-08-24T01:59:00.001-07:00

Prelims are finally going to be over soon.
Left with Biology Paper 1.
& then, O Levels.
God, You must bless me kk!

Faith, because You must be Greater.

2008-08-10T07:57:00.001-07:00

God gave me the serenity to accept the things that i cannot change, and the courage to change the things that i can, and the wisdom to know the difference

2008-07-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

recently..i offered to help my fren run..as in to run wif him..and i was thinnking while we were running..how come i can show love to him..when hes not even in my cg or anything?..and do i even do that for my cg mates, my family??..hmmm well i guess thats where i have to grow..love in my family--

2008-07-13T03:26:00.000-07:00

2 weeks left to save them(lost souls)...plz pray for these pple--marcus foo, shaun toh,dominic,elston,cikang,kiokyew

2008-07-05T10:18:00.000-07:00

my first regret and heartache for my past

god plz bring him bak

2008-07-01T05:19:00.001-07:00

its war time

2008-06-13T09:00:00.000-07:00

camp..indescriable..but i juz wanna thank god for breaking me and moulding me again..
hold me accountable k:)

REFLECTION

2008-05-16T08:04:00.002-07:00

i guess its entirely my fault..not giving my all..and now everything breaks down.sigh

REFLECTION

2008-05-16T08:04:00.001-07:00

2008-05-12T08:36:00.000-07:00

WHY?i reali dun understand..i gave it 1 of my best shots..but the results juz disappoints..seriously this was the 1st time where i literally cried for my results..it was juz uncontrollable..it juz dropped..and now im wondering..WHY??enlighten me please..

2008-05-03T10:31:00.001-07:00

REALITY CHECK--
guess i haven really been committed to god lately..been occupied by exams and sins(god knows)lol..today had a central d meeting which kinda struck my heart..cos it seems i reali nid to gt bak on the right track and cont to go all outso yup pray for me yea:)...anw jiaos bak on sji grp WELCOME BACK!!

2008-04-19T08:09:00.001-07:00

renewed..refreshed..
gonna work hard for my response:)

2008-03-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

i used to look forward to saturdays cos its so fulfilling
but now its just worrying and dreadful
sigh..

THOUGHT PROVOKING

2008-03-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

A TEENAGER'S VIEW OF HEAVEN
17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'

Brian's Essay: The Room...
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?

2008-03-21T07:01:00.001-07:00

sigh y cant things juz work out for me juz once??injury..school..cca..family..sheeps..nothings going rite!?best of it...i cant make it for service tmr WTH...easter summore..asking pple to go and everyones goin except for me...wth!??
satan juz let me off juz once please...
i reali wanna cry..

PLAIN STUPIDITY

2008-03-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

make me if not crush me
i shldn haf said anythng..now im even more screwed up..

2008-03-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

1 of worst service attendance..but its reali true that we can still find joy in this kind of circumstances...which is daniel is transferring to our church hahaha wooohoo!!..damn happy finally got him down after so mani tries..hopefully he can change his tuition:)AMEN!

2008-03-14T01:15:00.000-07:00

metamorphis was great!!(as usual)..and You reali nv fail to amaze me---promises...

anw some recent incidents made me think aboout my own reliability to other pple..seems like toking cock all the time makes every1 think that ure toking cock even though u are speaking the truth..is this good or bad!??

2008-03-10T06:02:00.001-07:00

wow today had pilars meet and it was awesome..lol felt so intuned and refreshed after that!
anw this holi is like crazy...tons of hw for every single subj...yawns!!

2008-02-27T05:41:00.000-08:00

i reali cant imagine how life is gonna be this period...cos rite now..it was the worse i ever had..

2008-02-22T20:43:00.000-08:00

when everything seems to go so well...it juz has to flop...

2008-02-18T21:57:00.000-08:00

woah..it was quite scary when u cant breathe...luckily got to hospital on time hahaha but i missed my common test papers of elec geog ss and amaths..lol..fortune in disguise??

2008-02-13T07:21:00.000-08:00

i have lost it..everything that i once had..its all lost...

2008-01-26T11:41:00.000-08:00

everything seems so unreal cant believe that life is juz zooming by and i haven completed my goals at all...plz help mi!!

2008-01-16T01:20:00.001-08:00

i wonder y but evaxing seems to juz reali refreshes and strengthns me! hahaa

2008-01-08T02:59:00.000-08:00

6/30...0/30...wat am i doin??????......screwing up my life man..

2008-01-04T05:44:00.001-08:00

shit i screwed up badly..1st time feeling crappy after promises..and sian all party has to come to and end...grp spilted up...

2007-12-31T09:39:00.001-08:00

HAPPY NEW YR!:)

2007-12-30T07:34:00.001-08:00

i want but cannot is juz an excuse....
i cant but i want shld be the spirit

2007-12-28T07:32:00.000-08:00

im reali sorri...1 possible conv after 7 weeks...sigh

2007-12-25T10:38:00.001-08:00

79 pple..nt good enough and im sorry...

2007-12-23T06:30:00.000-08:00

stuck at open sea in a kayak is quite fun when u cant see anything and cant find ur boat and pple screaming for help hahah...den went lots of pagodas,temples..marble mountain...memorial places that were bombbed by US...ahahaha basically nt bad and i am goin bak tmr hahahah..gonna miss here cos when i go bak...its studying time..boring!!...anw my mind was in sg ytd cos of svc..cant help much but hope we hit our target:)

2007-12-18T06:08:00.000-08:00

VIETNAM!!quite cool...no traffic lights..cross road like in china..very very scary..but generally weather damn cooling..but the air nt very fresh...2nd day onli!!and all the horning of cars and motorcycles is killing me!!damn retarded..every 2 sec got pple horn for nth!!go sum damn nice lake tmr..hope its nice and got internet hahahah..bye!!update again asap:)

2007-12-16T06:28:00.000-08:00

off to vietnam..sian gonna miss so much stuff like 3 matthew cgs..and christmas service and the party..sian!!!

2007-12-13T09:28:00.000-08:00

i reali cant believe how much this song has impaceted mi and i reali hope it has touched u 2:) enjoy!!

2007-12-12T20:35:00.001-08:00

BACK FROM CAMP!!haha was 1 taht i felt passed much faster than the other 2i have been to..and i think this camp like any other was fun..but more imptly it taught me lots of stuff like to obey..and god dropped me lots of words..so hope that its useful for every1~!(roses)and yep slept from 7pm-11am...lol and i cannot find my phone!!!please help mi find it...

2007-12-07T06:48:00.000-08:00

wordforlife for 1 weekk!!learned lots of things which i knew abit la..den to sum it up..ITS GREAT!lol den today had cg dynamics..my grp did treasure hunt for christmas matthew cg...quite creative la..and i juz realised how sucked i am at worship leading..lol..den learned abt freeworship which was i tink...hard to do but impactful...hmmm that sums up wordforlife and next up issssssssssss CAMP!lol reali looking forward to it..yupp..thats all!

2007-12-03T02:28:00.000-08:00

learned lots of things during wordforlife today..and daniel taught mi!..lol den sum girl took over and everything she said was totally NO LINK!from rabbit to cup cake..but reali learned lots of impt stuff and glad that i decided to go..:)

promises

2007-12-01T07:02:00.000-08:00

fri had prayer meet and guess wat?..promises was played and it brought to mi that i haf lots of unfulfilled promises to God although he has fulfilled His promises to me...cos i always seem to miss promises during service and during the meetings..they would play it and that reminds me of my promises..and i shld renew my relationship wif God by fulfilling promises and making new promises and committments..yep den today harversters meet,clm-damn cool..stand in and got prayed to be a DL(honoured honoured:))den service was great!although attendance was quite suck but yea..will work harder and thats abt it:))

BACK FROM SABAH

2007-11-26T05:29:00.000-08:00

damn glad to be back..reali missed home and was quite draggy the whole trip..had sum excitments but mostly was damn pissed at sum pple cos all they do is eat and complain..cant stand it..managed to climb mount kinabalu although was quite tired...was damn lucky though cos out of 10 days 8 days rained and the 2 days were the days nv rain and we climbed mount kinabalu..so if rain den canot climb so lucky lor..den got sea expedition..climb sum small hill and had rrafting..getting pics soon from pple and and ya..the sunrise was reali amazing...beautiful beyond belief and well thats abt it..bak in sg slacking bye!

saba

2007-11-14T10:09:00.001-08:00

off to SABA bye!

2007-11-13T04:13:00.000-08:00

YEA!!holis are here!and its gonna end in two days time when i set off for sabah...gonna miss so much stuff but yea..try to make up for it..hope sabah is fun and i live thru it hahaha..had soccer match today and we lost terriblely...unexpectedly!..lol..and thats abt it la..packing time:)

2007-11-10T02:09:00.000-08:00

challenges ahead:
a maths retest
sabah
church camp
being a shepherd

2007-11-09T07:14:00.001-08:00

y do i nt achieve almost all the goals i set??..guess its juz mi..nt working hard enough..sigh missed my target badly....lots of challenges ahead which i dun even know whether i can conquer..and it all worries mi...and the 1 i am most worried abt now is my a maths..seem to understand..and seeems not so...sigh!!damn!!y cant life juz be simple!

OBJECTIVE

2007-11-05T19:57:00.000-08:00

3 converts no less..onli more..and share the gospel earli...no last min work

2007-11-04T01:21:00.000-07:00

yesterdaay was a day to be remembered...1st went to harvesters meet and learned this--dun procrastinate...den went for service and had a sermon which learned b4 hahaha and i felt the PaW was super powerful...dunno y..den went for cf meeting...had a Fun,Fulfilling,Fantastic time and had a goal which was GREAT!:)....den things started to go wrong...like man u drew with arsenal due to a tyco last min equaliser by arsenal(nt reali affected but feel damn sian ahahahha)...den a shock came and well....we had to pray and pray for the situation to be solved..so hope GOD..be there for us...yeah den we went to surprise jq..and hope shes happy:)..and we took taxi all the way bak from clementi to tiong~!!expensive!!..anw reali thk god for everything:)..

2007-11-01T06:39:00.000-07:00

soccer floorball...twisted my knee thrice and now it cant bend...sigh is this a sign??or a punishment..??and hopes were high and happy den suddenly the bad news struck and welll...guess i haf nt worked hard enough...anw...any1 wanna teach mi guitar???gonna be a tough job cos i reali suck but i reali wanna learn:)haha so please teach mi if u are freeee:)

2007-10-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

tmrs wed!!good luck to all taking higer mother tongue!:)..having sleepy days and everything seems to go so slow...and my comp seemss to be catching fire and goin to explode anytime so ya bye...

2007-10-28T01:34:00.000-07:00

soccer!!did the most stupid thing of my life..missed a tap in..in the 6 yard box open goal...yawnsss...and that was supposed to be my hat trick..and i also dun understadn y pple play so rough over a game..hahah time to ponder!!and this reali sucks cos it dampens every1s spirit...
AND I STILL HAF SCH YAWNSSSSSSS....

the click five-jenny!!

2007-10-27T09:07:00.000-07:00

7 pple asked and none came..why??time for sum reflections...very very disappointed...11 for 3 weeks..time to reali chiong...time time time...my time may nt be god timing..sigh please let it be sooonn...!!

2007-10-26T06:37:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS A BAD DAY!!Amaths...pass retest if nt drop tot could slacked but now haf to study...sigh..sent out of class..got scolded and did this and that totally sucked day...looking forward to tmr the day of truth and glory:))....hope everything goes well and yea it will!!cos HE says so...and ya sum1(jem)owes mi his hmmmmhmmmm hahahahha...kkk bye!bless mi!

2007-10-23T08:01:00.000-07:00

finally everything done:)....nows the period where toally busy and distractions come and go..so hope to stay focus!!..anw holis aint till 9nov...borrring..anw plz pray for mi that i wont kanna pink form for tmr k!thx pple bye

2007-10-18T06:48:00.000-07:00

BACK FROM ACE CAMP-KLUANG!!haha damn tired at ace campp and now the hornet drills and everything so little NO FUN anymre!!haha but its okay la...did stupid things at the camp too!!:) hahaha but ya la its stupid so guess thats it!

2007-10-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

ur love is incredible!!failed a maths badly for eoys...BUT..i am glad that i passed all the others as i was expecting to fail 3 sciences but in the end...i passsed chem and phy for the 1st time this yr!! and bio passed toooo!i and reali wanna thnk YOU...and ya good luck to every1!!

2007-10-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

NEW BLOG NEW START!!!
20 FOR THIS WEEEK REALI HOPE WE WILL ACHIEVE IT
YES LORD!!!